i remember the quarrel farhana and i had over the misunderstanding she had of shiwen&me. oh well, everything happens for a reason. yep(:

secondary two. our very first tournament. i was such an idiotic captain, thinking a good capt would be one who can point out mistakes. boy, i couldnt be more wrong. remember xinya telling me something along the lines of "youre making me very nervous" haha. tournament ended as soon as it started. but we started training hard for the next competition. i remember sitting in class and waiting eagerly for the bell to ring before going for training with my cooler and shoebag(x evelyn used to make us shoot SO much. and she used to make us run like crazy. 6 rounds around the sch? but we still chiong-ed like nothing. i loved my stamina then(: it allowed me to get into top20 for xcountry that year.

i remember one carnival we had at nie. there was a dj who played songs for us(x and i remember after one game, msmary scolded me for three minutes and i cried after that. suihui tried to talk to me which just made me want to cry more. how embarassing HAHA.

when we first started to train under msmary, i dreaded trainings so much i couldnt concentrate on my schoolwork. i even contemplated quitting netball. luckily i didnt(x msmary was a terror. i remember occasionally jkok will receive sms-es from msmary saying she wont be coming for training. and all of us will cheer like nothing(x i remember there was one training when evelyn let us drink water, but msmary didnt, and she thought we drank without permission, she shouted at us in front of the seniors and made us run two rounds around the courtyard. i really hated her. went for my first nike training. msmary was SO NICE to the people there! i started to really like her, but that was the time she had to leave us.

then came the most awful period of netball life. msmary left. so we had some mrsneo. i disliked her at first, thinking she was toot. what a meanie. but she helped us A LOT with our camp. we had beehoon, chicken rice, and we even went to her house! i loved it. haha. lots of friendly matches in the sports hall, bargaining with her to cut down warm-up, slack but useful trainings, teaching us how to shoot and free biscuits&bananas! (:

but mrsneo had to leave. stupid stnichs poached her. so ms dandan came. real name, ms danica toh. she was only 17. she came for three trainings. and that was it. at some point of time, rongzhen was our coach for one training. haha. after ms dandan, mskoh came for her first training in her all-adidas outfit, and scolding me for not filling my bottle beforehand. i disliked her, yes again. haha she had serious moodswings at first, slamming the ball at us, screaming, she was crazy i tell you. but i admired her strong passes. and then i started liking her.

secondary three. the formation of brocks(: mskoh brought us through our tournament. she went crazy jumping at the sides and hugging shiwen when we scored(x we used to suan her like crazy. really, CRAZY. until she would just keep quiet. and there was once xinya's cooler dropped into the canal at the cedar busstop. she climbed in to retrieve it, but she lost her footing and fell in. that was really si jiao chao tian. but she fell quite cool-ly(x a bus stopped at the same time and everyone just stared at her. HAHA xD

i remember on the last day of term1, we went for dinner together at marina south after training. how fun(: then, mskoh left. sigh. after that, we were coach-less for quite a period of time. it sucked, all the useless self-trainings. i didnt mind anyone being our coach at all, not even mrslow. but we went for a carnival, and we made it into the second round. how proud we all were(: i realised we're always self-entertaining. remember there was once we lost to rgs by quite a bad score. and we were at nus, thinking of the next day's morning assembly and how people would react. haha we got a kick out of that.our first ever netball picnic held at pasirris park, proudly initiated by xinya&me. what was initially a random idea became a real event. heh(x it was so fun. that was our first interaction with the juniors. too bad it came too late.as sec3s, we took over as the main people in charge. our small gifts. we each have two at home(x i remember the one i got in sec1. it was such a nice bookmark. lots of effort put in. i was totally impressed by the sec4s. haha.its amazing how crapping can spark off so many wonderful memories. the starting of the niu family. xiaoQ, erniu, daniu, xiaoniu, and me, the ahbu(: haha how we crapped at the empty corridor. what about me and ahdie. i love thse people, and how i miss jkok(: used to listen to jielun while walking v slowly out pp, enjoying the beauty of the moon HAHA. (:

end of the year came. we finally had a coach. MS CHNG. she was the light. she was the strength that kept me going, really. the thought of having the rgs/stmargs/rj coach coaching us was just so.. WOAH. even though she came only on saturdays, it was enough(: so weili trained us on other days. trainings were quite enjoyable. seems that we always suan our young coaches(x

and so.. my last year in cedar started. tournament came early. we went to nus often. the frequent talks we had on the bus before each match, getting everyone to say something, the crapping and digressing, then the coming back to the real topic, the visualising.. i love very bit of it. this year, i made it a point not to shout(: and i think it had positive impact.this was our jersey. have another white one for tournament. heh, i love it(: it attracted envious stares from many, some even asked to take pictures of the shirt(x i still remember the day we won our crucial match. crescent came, looking all prepared and confident in their orange adidas sleeveless jersey and skirt. and they were big&tall. BUT, we fought hard neverthesless. when the whistle was blown, we just held our breath while waiting for scorers to tell us the score. ive never felt happier winning a match! mrslow treated us to 100plus later on(:

reminiscence of our last match at nus. supposedly according to height. BUT some people just dont want to face reality[look at the tiptoe-ing ones] and look at the number of nonsec4s taller than me! bah. this was after our game with fairfield and the juniors' with stmargs. i played super suckily, mschng kept telling us, come on, youve got nothing to lose, guess it didnt work.

prizegiving ceremony at toapayoh sports hall on campfireday, 7th march(: our first time getting trophies as a team, pathetic but memorable. went for dinner at swensens after that, courtesy of mschng&weili. well, it was really nice of mschng to treat us just becasue we got into top 4. co sif she was to do that to all her teams, she would have gone broke treating rgs xD

with all the appreciation we have for them, we decided to give them presents. huge corkboards bought after much effort from shiwen&me, decorated with notes and all(:mschng&weili looking happy. okay NOT exactly, but they were touched. really, we could see. mschng showed it off to her rgs team, and she told us she'd never received such a big present before. HEH(:

four years worth of memories, this has got to be my longest entry ever. i dont think anyone will read this entirely, but at least it will serve a good purpose a few years down the road. these four years, we've put up with so much humiliation and have been looked down on by countless individuals. nevertheless, we've done well this year and i'm proud of cedar netball for that(: it really sucked to have people saying we were useless. i remmber last year's sports day when we won the sports medley and suihui was the one who caught up for us, everyone just kept saying netball didnt really win cos suihui was from track. it was totally grrs, but nvm. i still am proud to be part of cedar netball(:

it felt good to hear that mrslow talked to her class and cited netballers as an example. she said something along the lines of "they were pathetic.. they couldnt even SMELL the trophies. but they worked hard and this year they made it to the nationals." and she mentioned that she was proud of her captains who always spoke to the team before the match. heh xD

however, it was always irritating when mrslow encouraged the team and later on tried to hint to me that we might lose or something. hypocritical? blunt will be a nicer word. but i really am thankful for having mschng to lead us to the nationals. i love the way she NEVER flares up or scolds us, but just encourages us and points out our mistakes in such a nice tone.

i think, we are a great batch of seniors. seriously, i mean, we never experienced any care&concern from our seniors. they never supported us. they never talked to us or encouraged us. they never interacted with us. never. that made us want to interact with our juniors. HAHA we should be given the innovative batch award. for our picnic, uniform jersey and successful farewells.

i'll miss the pole, i'll miss the nus courts. and i really really miss all these people for the fond memories they've left me: xinru xinya shiwen ranjani janine. i love them(:

this entry is so long.

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